When will I ever learn?

Everytime I want to do something, I won’t think about it. I won’t consider whether what I’m doing is good or bad, I’m not being rational, I’m not being considerate even. I really don’t know how I function sometimes. And at the end of the day I get affected myself, by what I’m doing, because I know I did something wrong.

Stop letting emotions get ahead of you, Xian You, don’t be a retard and take a chill pill when you know you’re gonna do something stupid.

.. But I need to be able to identify when I’m gonna do something stupid first.

Fuck this shit.