I used to be very emotional, being unable to control most of my feelings and just letting them out.
I can’t say that I’m a lot better now, I still tend to get angry and/or 感情用事 sometimes, but I do know that through the one and a half years in Eusoff at least, I realised that I’ve began to become ignorant of certain things.
Like, I would have been really down a few years ago if I failed one of my exams. Now, I just go ‘oh’ and nothing happens. Same goes with a lot of things – like.. maybe realising sometimes that your friends are not what you think they are.
I don’t know whether it’s a good or bad thing, maybe if I reflect on it it’ll be okay, but I really find that I don’t care about these anymore. It’s.. just easier to ignore. And I guess that’s a form of escapism?
I really need to think, and think.