Till Death Do Us Part

哭泣,是一种情绪的释放。

从来没有哭得这么用力过;我没有想到自己的情绪会这么激动,但是当幕布关上时,控制不了。

五个月的心思,不停的舞蹈训练,管理舞蹈者的务事,就只为了今晚,区区的两个小时,让我们在台上辉煌。

真希望今天可以久一点,让我再享受表演的滋味,谢幕的开心场景,那种知道你所有花费的力气,用心,睡眠(失去的),心思都没有白费。

还记得清清楚楚我在Wilfred的舞蹈之前准备时的慌张,缺少睡眠的我已开始累了,但是我一直告诉自己,我不能倒下,我一定要把握这五个月的用心在台上呈现给大家。上了台表演后我已经不能够记得我到底表现得怎么样了。

非常感谢Wilfred给我这个机会作为他的舞蹈的主角;让我学会了很多抒情嘻哈的感觉,技巧。希望我的表演有到水准。

Yen Ngee的舞蹈让我学到了现代舞蹈的巧妙,精华。她真的是一个非常有水准的舞者,花很多心思在她的编舞上,尤其是情绪。能够表演她的舞蹈,是我的荣欣,让我学会了很多。

Pei Zhou和Ally,我非常尊敬的制作人,把整个舞蹈剧的构造一步一步地联结起来,什么东西都管,他们比我们谁的工作时间还长。

Bertilla,和我一起做舞蹈协调,如果没有她我一定完蛋,哈哈。非常负责任的她也是非常好的舞者。

Jie Lin,我的舞蹈总监,非常温柔体贴的一个人,每次和她做事情都会非常的舒服。没有她我也是可以跳楼了。

我永远不会忘记这一天。

Please don’t give up

It’s only the 2nd day of the week and I only slept 4+ hours, in preparation of a lecture streak from 10am-5pm nonstop. Nice.

To add on more ggness to my week 1, Prof Leong from CS3217 has kindly released a Problem Set 13 pages long due on Sunday.

I keep telling myself that I won’t give up, I’ll struggle through these 2 weeks, but I am really, really scared that my mind wouldn’t work that way; that it would stop working during lectures due to lack of sleep, the last thing I want because I really need to be attentive in lecture , to make up for the lack of time I have to revise my work.

RAWR.

Today

I didn’t sleep for today’s lecture! I was rather attentive actually. Although the stuff thought today were dry and boring but I made sure I caught some details. Heh. This module (GEM2900) turned out to be quite interesting, I must say.

Sometimes I feel that the more I do other things, like organization and dance, the more I drift away from singing, appreciating music.

AY1011 Semester 2

It’s the start of a new semester.

Starting a semester has never been so stressful like this one; for the previous semesters, I went to school with a mindset of starting to learn, getting to know about my modules more, and just enjoying myself.

This semester, even before of my first lesson, I couldn’t rest; I needed to take care of dance production stuff, a cappella matters, and I still have a module that has an extremely heavy workload to worry about.

People believed in me, that’s why they chose me to lead; to coordinate and to bring the comm to greater heights. I always question myself sometimes, am I actually doing things right? What would’ve happened if it was another person in my position? Would they do a better job than me?

I don’t know. But what I know is, I’ve already stepped up, I can’t lose. I gotta fight harder, work harder until the last second, and enjoy the sweet moment of success, when we’ve done a great job.

Off to lesson.

My 2010

Here goes. In 2010, I..

*digs Facebook photos*

1. Performed for the YIH opening house as Eusoff A Cappella.

2. Went for a gay date with Luke to repair my spoilt Razer Orochi mouse.

3. Met up with a lot of old friends from my performing troupe during Chinese New Year!

4. Started skipping Multivariable Calculus lectures – one of the mistakes of the year

5. Performed at Eusoff DP ’10 – A Matter of Heart. 3 dances = tiring but awesome experience.

6. Performed at Voices Concert: Emerge ’10!

7. Obtained the Eusoff Rookie of the Year award for AY0910 – guess I’m a hall freak eh? 😀

8. Became the bodyguard for some pop star

9. Recorded 我们的故事 a cappella with my JC choir mates after a 2-year hiatus – :D:D

10. Performed at Dance Uncensored ’10, same items though, it was fun!

11. Performed for an internal Audio-Technica event, to showcase their headphones!

12. Got shot by a stormtrooper (on the same day)

13. Attended Life Science Dinner and Dance.. although I’m not from Life Science!

14. Performed at Cactus ’10 under Voices, and got myself the COOLEST HAIR EVER by this hairstylist!

15. Wrote a song for 2 of my very good friends, Erin and Eunice, because I couldn’t attend their birthday party :/

16. Went for a trip @ Genting Highlands with my brother’s girlfriend and her sisters, haha.

17. Celebrated Erin and Eunice’s sister, Jolynn’s birthday at their house, and I wrote a song for her too ><

(Song’s on Facebook!)

18. Led the MOST AWESOMEMEST IMBA FANTASTIC AMAZING Orientation Group ever, SHEAM!

19. Got dunked for the first time – by the people above!

20. Attended NUS Flag Day 2010, and collected money for the needy, all while not sleeping the previous day

21. Performed at NUS Rag 2010 under Eusoff Hall and won 4 awards!! 🙂

22. Attended bashes and more bashes..

23. Performed at Project X: Hedon, which is incidentally.. also a bash, but in school. Heh!

24. Went for MAF ’10 @ Hwa Chong! Caught up with all my old classmates, although I was emo that day ><

25. Went for Student Leaders’ Retreat.. although it wasn’t really a good experience.

26. Took up the role as dance coordinator for the current year (2011) Eusoff DP. ><

27. Took up the role as A Cappella head for AY1011.

28. Performed at Talentime ’10.. as Ash Ketchum and.. shall not disclose.

29. Wrote a song for dad on his birthday!

30. Wrote my first ever complete game with my team Sofaking (lol), Resource Wars!

31. Performed at MDIS graduation ceremony, twice!

32. Had the most – awesome – birthday – celebration – ever. In my 19 years of life.

33. Caroled at Mandarin Oriental Hotel!

34. Got the best results in my life.

35. Built my very own desktop for the first time – loving the power of my computer!

36. Convinced my dear friend to change his blog address to www.lukeyishandsome.com.

37. Watched 29 episodes of 射雕英雄传 before the year ended! (Like, literally. On the last week of the year)

And that’s my 2010. Wow a lot of stuff has happened! Most notably.. my HAIR! HAHA

Netbooks, Processing Power, Operating Systems, and Web Apps

Hopefully when I return to Singapore, if I have enough willpower (perhaps), I’ll do a post on my life in 2010, and dig up all the things that I’ve done in the year to counter my previous thought that 2010 was a waste.

Today I was using my little Sony VAIO P to surf the web. I had two operating systems on it, Windows 7 and Jolicloud 1.1.

Jolicloud is an operating system based on Ubuntu, and designed for the web; that is, it is intended to be used with an internet connection, with all its application shortcuts leading to web apps instead of local apps.

My VAIO P is a netbook (although Sony refuses to call it one) armed with the Intel Silverthrone processor, Intel Atom Z530 with GMA500 graphics (codenamed Poulsbo, infamous for its poor support especially on Linux, and its brokenness on virtually anything that requires graphical processing power).

How mine looks like (this picture is not mine, though)

Both operating systems feel rather snappy on my laptop, with no major slowdowns or whatsover on regular use. However, after surfing around on my few most browsed websites/web apps (Facebook, Twitter, Google Docs, Google Calendar), I can see noticeable lag on my computer as I attempted to browse through the sites, be it opening multiple tabs, or just scrolling down a larger page (Facebook status stream for example). This doesn’t happen at all on my desktop, with an Core i7 processor.

Which leads me to the thought – so what if I can run a lightweight OS on my netbook? If the web applications are not speedy enough, the netbook will lag regardless of what OS I have. It might be the fault of the web browser too – I’m using Google Chrome on both OSes (Chromium on the Jolicloud side), and it might be Google Chrome’s rendering engine that does not scale down well to lousier processors.

It is rather impossible, I must say, for web apps to get speedier, as they are expected to improve and innovate, more towards new features and less to speed, since people are expected to have more powerful computers anyway.

I might be making a wrong assumption about speed, since I’m using the Atom Z530, which is a 2008 technology. However, based on my knowledge the new Pineview Atom N470 or the N550 dual-core variant should not be any faster.

Thus, what’s the point of innovating more operating systems for the lousier computers (e.g. Jolicloud) if the web apps or web browsers themselves are to blame for the slowdown? Shouldn’t we tackle the root problem of these sites first? Ask Facebook why it’s lagging like a snail on most older computers?